Grandma Visiting!

Here is a picture of my son with his Grandma and one with my husband, my mother in-law, and my son.  She came and visited us for only a week. She lives in Texas with her husband and their youngest son. They couldn't make it down here this time. She was so amazed that we could watch fireworks so closely for the 4th of July. She said that she might make it a tradition to come down every year for the 4th of July since she had so much fun. And she said, maybe next time she will bring her youngest son because he loves fireworks. We were happy to have her visit. Shawn rarely gets to see her so it was really nice for him to be able to spend some time with her. We will be seeing them soon for Thanksgiving. We are planning to fly up to Texas and visit them. They have a tradition where everyone in their family fly out and meet up at some one's house and has Thanksgiving dinner. Shawn has not been able to meet all of his family on my husband's side so that will be very cool for him. And I haven't either so it will be nice for me too. :) 

Be Aggressive!

I guess I have always known that I had a low self esteem and that I don't give myself enough credit for the things I do. I always think that I am not any good at anything and don't usually get praised for my work. I have to say that since I have had my new supervisor at my job for about two years, she has complimented and praised me more often then anyone has ever done. She also has been very honest with me. Today she pulled me in and we had a talk about some things she noticed and wanted to inform me. She wanted to let me know that she did see how hard I worked and that she noticed that I I was a team player. That made me really happy to know. She also wanted me to work on somethings like being more aggressive and assertive with my decisions at work. I tend to question myself and others because I like to make sure I cover my grounds so I don't get in trouble. I guess that is a weakness and an area I need to work on. She did bring up a good point that if I wanted to get promoted, I would have to have those qualities and be able to handle situations on my own. So that is going to be my new project. I am going to work on being more aggressive and making decisions without questioning it unless I really don't know the answer. I will start carrying myself as a confident and assertive person. It will be hard but I really do want people to see that I am capable of handling anything. I don't want to be looked at as a person that doesn't know what she is doing and is not a strong person. So I will be working extra hard and will be researching on how I can change myself. Wish me luck!

How Exciting!

Well, I just found out that my mother in-law is coming to visit us for a week. :) We have not seen her since my husband and I got married. So we have lots to catch up on and she will have some time to spend with my son. And also, my brother in-law will be in town and his girlfriend is coming to visit from Washington. So we will have a fun weekend ahead of us. We are planning to have a BBQ on Friday for the 4th of July. Haven't decided on what we will do for the weekend but I'm sure it will be fun. I will take lots of pictures and post them up.

Oh, the OC Fair is going to be here on July 11th! Hooray! I am so excited. I love the fair. We go every year. I mostly like the food and shopping. My son likes the rides. My husband likes the food and the rides. I think he even likes the shopping. Hehee :) Cant wait to go!

Has it been that long?

Wow, I didn't realize how long it has been since I've written. I have been so caught up with my brother in-law visiting, my son in summer camp, my son's dance recital, playing the Wii, and every other thing that comes up in my life. 

My brother in-law is now back in San Diego. Not sure what is going on with the whole matter. We thought he was going to stay in Texas for training and then to Iraq. Things are always changing with him so we never know. We will be seeing more of him in the weekends since he is back in San Diego. Looks like he might be here for 4th of July! Yeah! :) 

My son is actually done with 1st grade and is in summer camp now. :( He is growing up too fast. I really don't even remember the whole year passing by so fast until now. Scary! He is enjoying the fact that there is no homework every night. But I still have him reading and going over work books so he doesn't forget everything he learned in 1st grade. This whole summer camp thing is stressing me out now. I miss school. I didn't have to worry about if he would be safe or not but now I am terrified to even drop him off. They take these kids to water parks, Knot's, the beach, and all sorts of stuff. Now that is stressful because I don't think schools should take young kids to those places if there are like 20 children and maybe 3 teachers. And they drive them in their own cars and not even on a school bus or van. I almost had a heart attack when they told me they took my son without his booster seat. Yes, I am one of those over protective mothers but I would rather be that and save a life then one who didn't worry and regret that I didn't because it would be too late. I know they laugh and talk about me but I don't care. I want my baby to be safe and I don't want to make sure I can help prevent any harm that might happen to him as much as I can. That is my job as a mother. So why do some people not understand that and judge us? It should be those who don't worry or show concern that are the ones that are looked as wrong and not the mother who wants to make sure her child is safe. 

 So on the last day, we found out some really sad news. His teacher was let go and will no longer be working there. It is so sad how they treated her. I will really miss her. They had told her that there might be a chance that they didn't need her because they had two 1st grade class and the enrollment numbers weren't enough for both class. They said if they got 25 children then she could stay. They had got the enrollment numbers to 25 at the last day of school but then decided to change it to 30 children and said they no longer needed her. How sad is that? And this is a Christian School! Who does that to a person? That is just mean and cruel. When I came to pick my son up, I saw the teacher packing her stuff into her car and she looked in shocked. I am so sad for her and sad for the school because she was a wonderful teacher. Please keep her in your prayers, she needs a new job fast. She also has a teenager to take care of so that is another issue she has to worry about. 

My son's dance recital was soooo cute. He did so wonderfully. I am so proud of him. He is a natural. I cant wait to get the video so I can watch it again and again. Everyone did very well. It was a good show. It was based on the story "Jungle Book". My son was playing one of the bears and they danced to "Bare Necessities". 

We have been playing the Wii a lot. We got the Wii fit, Mario Kart, and Silent Hill Umbrella something. We have been busy here. Its the best thing ever. I love the Wii! I even got my mom into it. We created her Wii character the other night and it looks just like her. Its so cute. Looks like we might have to get another remote for her. Hehee :) 

Anyhow, it's late and I am tired. Good night. 

Contour Ab Belt

OK, so I saw this commercial about the Contour Ab Belt. It looked really good. I am thinking about getting it but it cost $200. They give you 30 days to try it out with no obligation. It all sounds so good. And the stories the people told were all good. They showed before and after pictures of them and it looks like it works pretty good. So I don't know if it is worth the $200. I really do need to do something about my stomach because I cant do sit ups or crunches due to having a bad back. It sucks. So maybe this thing is a miracle worker. I am really thinking about it. I just am worried it doesn't work. I doubt I will see a difference in 30 days so that trial thing wont help me. I just wish I knew someone who did have one or used it and know if it is any good. Well, if anyone knows anything or heard anything about it, please let me know. I would hate to waste my money on something that doesn't work. There are too many people who get conned over these commercials. I don't want to be one of them. I will let you know if I get one and if it works.

Good Times!

Today was my second day back to the gym since last year and boy let me tell you, it was no picnic. This morning I could barely move and then after I worked out today, it got even worse. Now my buttocks feel tight, and my legs seem to be heavier and harder to lift up. You know what? If it wasn't so darn painful and hard to workout, more people would do it. I know I would if it felt good. But I have to say it does feel really good after you work out. It feels like you just accomplished something. Too bad the results are not as fast as gaining the weight. I really think that it's messed up that even when you work out and feel pain after, you still cant see the results. If I feel the pain then I should see some results. I know if I eat crap I see the results right away. So why did God make our bodies that way? It just isn't fair. I just hope I don't get off the wagon again. I have to keep it up and lose this weight. I want to be healthy and live long enough to see my grandchildren one day.

Talking to Strangers

So something happened tonight that really bothered me. Although I am a Christian, I don't believe in knocking on every ones' door to tell them what to believe in. We just had these two women come by at 7pm (dinner time) and wanted to talk about religion. Now I usually just say I already go to a church and I am happy there. Well, my husband decides to close the door and have this conversation with them for over 30 minutes. Now that is long for him because he usually doesn't listen to stuff like that, especially to strangers knocking at the door at 7pm. So my son who goes to bed at 7:30 is waiting for him to come back in and pray with him, which is their nightly thing. As my son is waiting, I am in the shower hoping that when I come back out, my son will be already off to sleep. If he doesn't get his sleep, the mornings are not nice for me. So I am very strict on him going to bed on time. I come out of the shower and my son is clapping and singing. By now, I am furious. I tell my son to go open the door and say, "Excuse me but daddy I need you to pray with me because it is time for bed." My son comes back to me and says that his daddy told him to hold on and that he will be there soon. It was 15 minutes before he came in and as he came in he says, "uhhh" like he hated the fact that he was out there talking to them. If he really didn't want to hear it, trust me, he would have made it known and would have closed the door on them. BUT he did not. He stayed out there and talked and talked and listened to them go on and on about how we need to be baptised (which we already are). And he even made them laugh which he rarely even does with me because he is always serious. I know what you are thinking and no they were not young hot girls. The women could have been his mother. So it wasn't that. It's just not right to go knocking on people's door and making them feel uncomfortable and obligated to hear what you think. So what if I didn't agree and what if I don't want to hear it. Its a choice and that's why there are churches out there. Isn't it suppose to be a choice people! If I want to hear about God then I go to church. I don't go talking to strangers about my believe because that is between me and God. Now if someone is lost and want to learn about God then usually people know to go to church. I really don't need anyone knocking at my door telling me I will go to hell if I am not baptized. What is that? That is not choice. Now that is just straight scaring people into believing that our God is a mean. He is not a mean God. He wants us to choose for ourselves and make our own decisions. I need one of those signs to hang up for no solicitors. Maybe that will keep them away. It just frustrates me that he can have such a personal and deep religious conversation with strangers and not with me. That really hurts and makes me pissed. So I told him off when he came in and he said he would take care of my son so he wont be a problem for me. He didn't even get the point of it. I just don't get it. I just don't understand him. Why did he do it? Why did he even stay out there for so long? I know I am rambling on but I just don't know anymore. Does that make my marriage a bad one because he rather talk to strangers then to me? Does that mean he doesn't love me? Maybe I am taking it out of proportion but I am just trying to understand him. He tells me that he doesn't want my son going to bed later than 7:30 and that he had lots of work to do tonight and then he takes all that time to talk to strangers then go pray with his son. What is that? Why? I am just so disturbed by his actions right now that I want to scream. My night is ruined and I am now depressed and am going to go cry it out.